Tuesday, 31 December 2013

31 December 2013

Food Diary

M: Ate one Duro  pill and water.
B: nil
L: Fried beansprouts, sweet sour chicken, butter chicken, honey glazed chicken, mineral water (i ate a lot).
S: nil (planned to buy iced hazelnut latte/coconut yoghurt ice cream)
D: Grilled Chicken Salad, 4 chicken mc wings, 2 chicken strips,bbq sauce, mineral water, hazelnut latte
S: sugar free gum, laterals
( drank a lot of water tonight)

Exercise; having my monthlies so not up to it.

Thoughts

Current Weight Loss: 82.9 KG ( 7 KG LOSS FROM HW: 89.9KG)


The new year is upon us, i am wishing and praying hard for 2014 to be my year, The year where i gain my body back. I can do this. 6 months before my next travel adventures to reach my dreams.

2014 WEIGHT LOSS RESOLUTION


EAT PALEO/LOW CARB

EXERCISE 5-6 TIMES A WEEK (CARDIO/WEIGHT TRAINING)
100 SITUP & 30 SQUATS & 100 TONER LEG TONER DAILY


Fighting !!!

Sunday, 29 December 2013

30 December 2013

Food Diary

M: Ate one Duro  pill and water.
S: nil
L: Trailmix and Water
S: nil
D: Mc D grilled chicken salad, 3 chicken strips, bbq sauce,
S: Iced hazelnut latte
(continuos drinking of water at night)

Exercise; having my monthlies so not up to it.

Thoughts

I am so going on my grocery shopping later, meal prep is the key.

*** The reason i am on Duro is because it kills my appetite for junkies and fatty snacks and gives me lots of energy. Im am not going to be on it for the long haul, i have just two months supply. Now on my 4 pill of the first month. I have to remind myself to drink lots of water.

I really want to exercise as i have already upped my stamina and managed to jog for 30 mins non stop at 4.5KM.. which was a superb achievement of my life. I have never jogged that long before at a higher speed. The reason why i started jogging was my friend and i were planning to do a 5K in January 2014, but i don't want to stress myself with no training and such. So i decided ultimately not to do it.
I will just go about this weight loss journey my own pace my time.

I am planning thought to do 30 mins jog/cardio as the main exercise for my journey, upping it monthly to 40, then 50 then 60 mins.

This weight loss journey will have a time frame until June 2014 when it is going to be my first travel trip. Then ultimately my birthday in November.

Dec; not counted
Jan
Feb
Mar
April
May
June

As Dec is not counted, i have 5 months for my journey, I'm wishing myself the best of luck in my weight loss adventures.


XOXO

Duro and my weight loss journey

Details of me

Height : 5 ft
Weight: SW : 89.9 KG
Current Weight : 83.1 KG
Measurements:
B: 45
W:36.5
H: 51
Body Fat Percentage: 27.51%
BMI : 35.79 obesity class 2
(must be 54KG/120lbs to get normal weight)
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Diet: Modified Paleo and Duromine
Exercise : Cardio 5-6 times a weeks + 1 Weight Training
Daily Exercise : 30 squats/100 situps/100 total leg toner each side

It may seems ambitious, but I'm easing myself into this, its a gradual process i know.

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I am on duromine as i have used it before and it really helps to kill my appetite for snacking etc and provided me with extra energy boost for those laggy day, i just have to remember to drink lots of water.

Introductions :D

I am a FAT WOMAN…there i said it.

The dreaded word that have plagued me my whole life.

This FAT that encloses my body has prevented me to reach out to the whole world.

I never feel I'm good enough, thus i engorged on fatty stuff, junk stuff , food that basically make one fat, i feel happiness from it, its and endless cycle  binge and eat, there is a bottomless well for me to fill, to fill up this emptiness, this pain.

….And i end up FAT.

I decided to regain back my life when i saw happiness around, happiness that was always out of reach for me, a mere myth as i am always the outsider looking in.

I paste a fake smile on my face as i go through the motions in my life. because in my mind this words will always resonate through my head;

…….You are ugly and fat
……..No one wants to be friends with you..
………No one will ever like you.
………No one will ever love you.


This demons i have live with all my life, all the rejections reinforcing it, i yearn for that sunshine of life, for the warm arms of love, for acceptance and for my real smiles to come back.

THUS i am embarking on this journey to rediscover myself to be the one person that i can be….

TO BE THE HAPPY ME :D