Introductions :D

I am a FAT WOMAN…there i said it.

The dreaded word that have plagued me my whole life.

This FAT that encloses my body has prevented me to reach out to the whole world.

I never feel I'm good enough, thus i engorged on fatty stuff, junk stuff , food that basically make one fat, i feel happiness from it, its and endless cycle  binge and eat, there is a bottomless well for me to fill, to fill up this emptiness, this pain.

….And i end up FAT.

I decided to regain back my life when i saw happiness around, happiness that was always out of reach for me, a mere myth as i am always the outsider looking in.

I paste a fake smile on my face as i go through the motions in my life. because in my mind this words will always resonate through my head;

…….You are ugly and fat
……..No one wants to be friends with you..
………No one will ever like you.
………No one will ever love you.


This demons i have live with all my life, all the rejections reinforcing it, i yearn for that sunshine of life, for the warm arms of love, for acceptance and for my real smiles to come back.

THUS i am embarking on this journey to rediscover myself to be the one person that i can be….

TO BE THE HAPPY ME :D